Psalm 42:1 – As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God.
Have you ever found yourself really thirsty? I’m talking about like you just walked across the Sahara Desert in the 120-degree heat with sand all around you thirsty. I can remember one of the most frustrating things that happened to me through the wreck where I spent about two months in the hospital was being on a ventilator. For those uninitiated, being on a ventilator means absolutely no drinking or eating for as long as it takes… and trust me when I say: it’s miserable.
I can remember the first day after I was fully taken off the ventilator and the first time I was allowed to eat or drink. Although I wasn’t terribly interested in eating, I couldn’t stop drinking. Water. Gatorade. Unsweet tea (yes, even unsweet tea). Whatever I could get, I would drink. I was thirsty. Really, really thirsty.
Today I want to ask an honest question: are you longing for God? I’m talking about the type of longing that you can feel it in every part of you. The type of longing that can only be satisfied once He shows up. If I’m being honest, I don’t always long for God in prayer this way. Sure, I pray, but almost out of a sense of obedience instead of relationship. I want to want God. I want to long for Him so desperately that I can’t stop praying until I feel Him right beside me.
The Psalm writer asks in verse 11: Why, my soul, are you downcast? Why so disturbed within me? It’s almost as if the writer is reminding himself that even in this moment of physical weakness where it feels like God has forgotten him, that God never has before. God has always been faithful and thus the writer finishes the thought: Put your hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.
What about you today? Have you ever had an overwhelming longing for God but it felt like He didn’t show up when you needed Him? Scripture promises us that God is using all things for good for those who love Him (Romans 8:28). We are also reminded throughout Scripture that God is faithful and that His love endures forever (Psalm 136 for example).
Here is something to consider: if Jesus is the Bread of Life and the Living Water, is it any wonder that so many of us go around so desperately spiritually hungry and thirsty? It’s as if we treat prayer and Bible study as something we do on special occasions instead of a consistent part of our lives. It’s easy for us to spot when we are physically hungry or thirsty… we may experience things like fatigue, irritability, exhaustion, the inability to focus, etc. Although not as easy to spot, spiritual hunger can lead to allot of the same things.
As you pray today, ask God to give you a longing like this. Ask Him to rekindle the love and passion you’ve had for Him and help you to truly express that by passionately seeking Him out. Ask Him for strength to be consistent in seeking Him. As Him to consume you with a refreshing fire that helps you see prayer in a whole new light. Start today’s prayer in humble confession about where your prayer life is actually knowing where God is leading it to be.
Father, we come before you with an overwhelming desire to know and want you more. Help us to walk in the light as You are in the light. Consume every part of us with a refreshing fire that will help us not only to seek You but do so with a renewed passion and persistent desire. Forgive us for what we’ve made prayer if it’s anything besides an intimate time of communication with you. Help us to pray without ceasing throughout the day and teach us to seek your guidance in all things. Help us, as the Psalm writer says, to long for you as a deer longs for water. We know that in seeking you with passion, humility, and persistence that through our faith in Jesus we will be renewed, refreshed, and filled. It’s in Jesus’ name we pray, amen.